I've been doing some reading from a book entitled, "What the Buddha Taught", by Walpola Rahula. As mentioned previously, my wife is Thai, and a Buddhist.
While reading, my mind began to wander a bit (which is ironic, given the teachings of the Buddha regarding mental accuracy and focus). I started to realize a very sad fact of my Christian upbringing...
I will never be able to remove the evil tentacles of Christianity from my brain. It's got me, for the rest of my life. While I can completely and honestly know that the ideas of salvation, condemnation and imaginary friends are silly and childish, I will always take a tiny bit of doubt with me, everywhere I go.
If something terrible were to happen in my life, something catastrophic, the question would arise of whether I am being punished by BibleGod for not believing in Him. When I am on my deathbed, I will be forced to ask myself, "Do I really know that Hell doesn't exist"? The amount of relevance I'll assign this might be miniscule, but nevertheless it will be there, like an old hockey injury that never quite heals.
Now, allow me to contrast this for you, so that you understand why I find this incredibly sad.
My wife, who is Buddhist, does not believe in salvation, condemnation, or God. The discussion is not even valid to her. When she laughs at these Christian ideas, it is genuine, innocent laughter at something so strange. While I am busy combating Christianity, she is telling me, "Why don't you just let people believe what they want, even if it's stupid"? She will never have any doubts about her destiny, because she's never been brainwashed with these quirky Christian concepts. I, on the other hand, am always combating Christianity because I was brainwashed, and these concepts can never entirely leave me. I take it personal.
I wish that my mind could be completely liberated from Christianity. I wish I could dig out the rotten parts and discard them like a bad piece of fruit. The parts that tell me that I am evil for leaving the "flock". The parts that tell me I will burn for eternity because I don't believe in invisible men, regardless of whether I am a good person or not. The parts that tell me that bad things happen to me, or may happen to me, because of my apostasy.
Non-Christians can never understand what it's like, and Christians obviously think I'm "misguided" to begin with. That fact of the matter is that these diseased portions of my mind can never be repaired. I never asked for Jesus or God, or Heaven or Hell. It was forced on me by a Christian society, and a Christian family. It soon will be forced on elementary school children when they learn about Creationism in our public schools. And what Christians don't tell you is that once you get Jesus on the brain, He never goes away.
What an asshole.
December 9, 2007
November 2, 2007
Christian Chain Emails
So my buddy at work knows I'm an atheist, and that I'm fairly outspoken about Christianity and all it's bigoted beliefs. We work in separate locations, and apparently one of his coworkers likes to send out Christian chain mails via the company email system. My buddy knows that this kind of stuff really gets me going, so everytime he gets one, he forwards it to me (with addresses removed). He won't tell me who this little nutjob is, but I have my suspicions.
Here's one that he sent me earlier this week:
I LOVE THIS MAN
No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.
And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE
scroll downIf you love this man please forward to 10 people.
He did something for you, now do something for him.
Spread his word, and you'll be rewarded.
How will you be rewarded?
Matthew 10:32 'Whoever acknowledges Me before men, I will acknowledge him before My Father in heaven. But whoever disowns Me before men, I will disown him before My Father in heaven
God is going to shift things around for you tonight & let things work in your favor. If you believe, send this to ten people. Do not ignore him. You must have unwavering faith
I can't tell you how much this kind of shit annoys me. I don't know what irritates me more: The arrogance of the sender who think it's acceptable to send out unsolicited religious emails, the faulty analogy being used, or the direct fucking order not to question your faith.
The faulty analogy dies out right at the beginning. If we add Jesus to the analogy as our dim-witted Christian intends, it looks like this:
"Nobody falls into love with Jesus by choice, it is by chance."
In Christianity, you must choose Jesus. If you do not consciously choose Jesus, you will perish with all the other cool people in Hell. Thus, this analogy is fucked.
As we proceed down the email, we see a picture of Jesus (whose body is completely hairless, which I find hard to believe). We also encounter font color and size changes, which raise the irritation level even more. Christian craziness is at it's peak here. We have a bold statement of love for Jesus, followed by the guilt-trip inducing "He did something for you, now you do something for Him". Next we have a promise of something intangible for our efforts, a little bit of scripture to really stoke the fires, and finally we end with some Christian "Feel Great" smooth-talking, letting you know that God is gonna "get things working right for you again".
Do people really have that many problems in their lives? If someone told me that "God could get things working well for me again", I would laugh and ask them what it is exactly that I need help with. Perhaps the only people who need help are Christians?
Honestly, I would much rather have daily spam emails telling me that Bill Gates is giving me cash, or that a girl in Africa needs money for polio crutches...at least the people making that shit up aren't telling me how to live my life. Unfortunately, until people begin taking Christians to task on their beliefs and challenging them, we all will be forced to live by their rules and accept these emails with a whimper.
The faulty analogy dies out right at the beginning. If we add Jesus to the analogy as our dim-witted Christian intends, it looks like this:
"Nobody falls into love with Jesus by choice, it is by chance."
In Christianity, you must choose Jesus. If you do not consciously choose Jesus, you will perish with all the other cool people in Hell. Thus, this analogy is fucked.
As we proceed down the email, we see a picture of Jesus (whose body is completely hairless, which I find hard to believe). We also encounter font color and size changes, which raise the irritation level even more. Christian craziness is at it's peak here. We have a bold statement of love for Jesus, followed by the guilt-trip inducing "He did something for you, now you do something for Him". Next we have a promise of something intangible for our efforts, a little bit of scripture to really stoke the fires, and finally we end with some Christian "Feel Great" smooth-talking, letting you know that God is gonna "get things working right for you again".
Do people really have that many problems in their lives? If someone told me that "God could get things working well for me again", I would laugh and ask them what it is exactly that I need help with. Perhaps the only people who need help are Christians?
Honestly, I would much rather have daily spam emails telling me that Bill Gates is giving me cash, or that a girl in Africa needs money for polio crutches...at least the people making that shit up aren't telling me how to live my life. Unfortunately, until people begin taking Christians to task on their beliefs and challenging them, we all will be forced to live by their rules and accept these emails with a whimper.
November 1, 2007
Christianity: What a waste of a perfectly good life!!
I brought this idea up in the forums of the excellent website, WhyDoesGodHateAmputees,
and I thought I'd share it here as well.
Christians are wasting their precious time on this planet. In subscribing to the absurd, irrational belief that they will live for eternity after they die, they waste the time they already possess on earth.
Don't believe me? Let's take a look at some numbers...
Christians are supposed to reserve the Sabbath for the Lord. Here in the United States, this reservation takes the form of Sunday School, Worship Service, and a very large booth at Sizzler followed by a 10% tip.
What does this mean? This means that "true" Christians are spending one day a week devoted to their Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. No big deal, right?
Let's go further. Let's make the following simple assumptions. Let's assume that Suzie Sweetcheeks will have a lifespan of 80 years. Let's further assume that young Suzie begins a regular schedule of church attendance at the age of 10, just in time to avoid the fires of hell were she to perish prematurely. Are these acceptable assumptions?
Okay, so let's now draw a conclusion from this setup.
There are those who counter me by stating that Sunday is not spent completely in Church, and so my calculation is flawed. However, I feel this all averages out once you add in the Church Picnics, Church [fat]Camp, Wednesday Night services, Prayer Warrior sessions, and all that other shit that I didn't count.
So let's make one more conclusion based on this...
Atheists and the non-religious can, by virtue of having more time available in their lifetime, do more for the good of humanity than Christians.
If I, as an Atheist, decided to devote the rest of my life to feeding the starving children in Africa, then it would be impossible for a "true" Christian to match my humanitarianism. Simply put, I as an Atheist have my Sundays available for anything I desire. The "true" Christian does not have this luxury...they better have their snouts stuffed into a hymnal, or else.
Even if the Christian had spent only one day in church during their entire lifetime, I would still be able to spend one more day than them, helping people.
Perhaps it's easier to think of in this way:
Given the fact that a "true" Christian should be spending time in Church, which of these people can actually makes the bigger positive impact on humanity?
Maybe the Church has a very active missionary contingent which the Christian supports indirectly through tithing. Okay, then maybe the Atheist has started a non-profit with the same manpower as the missionaries, with the difference being that no time is spent teaching about Jesus....We can create examples like this all day, but the facts will not change.
Sadly, the Atheist who individually gives more to humanity than the Christian...that Atheist will burn in Hell. That Atheist is evil, corrupt, and a tool of Satan. And he deserves to suffer eternal separation from God for his actions...Does this seem right to you?
Ten years of life spent in church. For what?
and I thought I'd share it here as well.
Christians are wasting their precious time on this planet. In subscribing to the absurd, irrational belief that they will live for eternity after they die, they waste the time they already possess on earth.
Don't believe me? Let's take a look at some numbers...
Christians are supposed to reserve the Sabbath for the Lord. Here in the United States, this reservation takes the form of Sunday School, Worship Service, and a very large booth at Sizzler followed by a 10% tip.
What does this mean? This means that "true" Christians are spending one day a week devoted to their Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. No big deal, right?
Let's go further. Let's make the following simple assumptions. Let's assume that Suzie Sweetcheeks will have a lifespan of 80 years. Let's further assume that young Suzie begins a regular schedule of church attendance at the age of 10, just in time to avoid the fires of hell were she to perish prematurely. Are these acceptable assumptions?
Okay, so let's now draw a conclusion from this setup.
80 years - 10 years = 70 years of church attendance
1 day per week x 52 weeks per year / 365 days per year = 1/7 or 14.25%
70 years of church attendance x 14.25% = 10 years of church attendance!
Ahem. Ten years of church. Not ten years at one day a week. TEN YEARS, 7 DAYS A WEEK, 365 DAYS A YEAR.
Our country's wars have not lasted that long. Most prison terms do not last that long. This is roughly equivalent to the amount of time a child spends in the K-12th grades. However, they are learning wonderful things about science and language and history and so on. That same time spent over a lifetime in church does nothing. It only breeds bigotry and self-hate.
Perhaps you are one of "those" who thinks that you don't have to go to church? Well, there are some "truer" Christians who disagree with you, just look:
Our country's wars have not lasted that long. Most prison terms do not last that long. This is roughly equivalent to the amount of time a child spends in the K-12th grades. However, they are learning wonderful things about science and language and history and so on. That same time spent over a lifetime in church does nothing. It only breeds bigotry and self-hate.
Perhaps you are one of "those" who thinks that you don't have to go to church? Well, there are some "truer" Christians who disagree with you, just look:
Most of the people, who say such things like," I don't have to go to church." or " I can worship God at home ", have been told by some religious leader that they are " saved ". The truth is, they are lost, and on their way to hell, and the false teacher that told them that they were saved, is lost, and on his or her way to hell also! A link to this nonsense
When you become a Christian, you are called into a relationship with God (1 Corinthians 1:9). But I John 1:3 makes it clear that we enter a fellowship that goes two ways: with God and with other Christians....
A single verse should actually be sufficient answer for this question: Hebrews 10:25 warns its readers against “forsaking the assembly of yourselves together, as the manner of some is.”
Another link to this nonsense
There are those who counter me by stating that Sunday is not spent completely in Church, and so my calculation is flawed. However, I feel this all averages out once you add in the Church Picnics, Church [fat]Camp, Wednesday Night services, Prayer Warrior sessions, and all that other shit that I didn't count.
So let's make one more conclusion based on this...
Atheists and the non-religious can, by virtue of having more time available in their lifetime, do more for the good of humanity than Christians.
If I, as an Atheist, decided to devote the rest of my life to feeding the starving children in Africa, then it would be impossible for a "true" Christian to match my humanitarianism. Simply put, I as an Atheist have my Sundays available for anything I desire. The "true" Christian does not have this luxury...they better have their snouts stuffed into a hymnal, or else.
Even if the Christian had spent only one day in church during their entire lifetime, I would still be able to spend one more day than them, helping people.
Perhaps it's easier to think of in this way:
- Take one Atheist whose entire life is devoted to charitable works.
- Clone that Atheist and make him a Christian.
Given the fact that a "true" Christian should be spending time in Church, which of these people can actually makes the bigger positive impact on humanity?
Maybe the Church has a very active missionary contingent which the Christian supports indirectly through tithing. Okay, then maybe the Atheist has started a non-profit with the same manpower as the missionaries, with the difference being that no time is spent teaching about Jesus....We can create examples like this all day, but the facts will not change.
Sadly, the Atheist who individually gives more to humanity than the Christian...that Atheist will burn in Hell. That Atheist is evil, corrupt, and a tool of Satan. And he deserves to suffer eternal separation from God for his actions...Does this seem right to you?
Ten years of life spent in church. For what?
October 15, 2007
Genesis Concert
Last Saturday, my wife and I saw Genesis in concert at the Hollywood Bowl. I've never really considered myself a fan, but my wife loves them, so I bought tickets for her birthday.
They sounded great in concert, and we both had a lot of fun. It was my first time at the Bowl, and it was much larger than I had imagined.
They had this one song called "In The Cage", and during the entire song, there was a 50' tall
graphic of a human figure on the screen behind the band. The figure was running, towards the camera, away from the camera, and at angles to the camera, and there was a red grid in the background representing 'the cage'. At one point as the music crescendos, this giant figure shatters as it runs into the wall of the "cage". The shattered figure ends up being propelled outside of the cage, representing the person finally escaping to the outside.
There is a point to this.
I was seriously tripping out on this figure. I couldn't take my eyes off the fucking thing. Added to this was the fact that the crowd had already begun lighting up joints. The smell was everywhere.
Now, I haven't done any type of drugs since 1997. I personally have no need for them, and additionally my job screens its employees for drug use every 5 years or so.
The italicized part of that sentence is critical, and really is what I'm writing about.
I fully realized my Atheism last year, throwing away my God security-blanket after about 6 years of Agnosticism. Since then, I've noticed a distinct change in the way that I view life. In fact, I'm noticing that my outlook seems to change for the better every day. The one key theme in my changing outlook is that I have an urge to live my life. A by-product of this urge is the fact that I seriously dislike my job. I don't enjoy limits on my freedom, and part of my job requires that my freedom to live life be infringed upon. However, it's paid the bills for seven years and so for now, it must be.
But is it right that I should limit my life because of my job? At the Genesis concert, had I wanted to hit a joint, would it have been wrong for me to do so? I mean, I'm not smoking crack. I'm not shooting heroin, or dropping LSD. Smoking a joint at a Genesis concert is not going to affect my performance at work, it's not going to compromise my integrity, it's not going to negatively impact my life. One could even make the case that it would positively impact my life, if you consider the fact that I wouldn't be bitching about it on this blog.
I understand my employer screening people, and it is definitely within their rights to do so. That doesn't change my perspective on my own life, however. It doesn't change my desire to live my life as fully as possible, knowing that my existence is not forever. It doesn't change the fact that my job, which I dislike immensely, is dictating how I live. In the grand scheme of things, is the money gained from working more valuable than the experiences never enjoyed?
Phil Collins stated that last Saturday was the last show, of their last tour, since they're all getting old. My opportunity to see that running image will never happen again during my lifetime. It's interesting that my memory of the runner will be forever married to my thoughts of being like him, trapped inside a system of living that won't allow me to live.
I love my life, and I'm just now learning how to live it. It will certainly be an interesting ride.
They sounded great in concert, and we both had a lot of fun. It was my first time at the Bowl, and it was much larger than I had imagined.
They had this one song called "In The Cage", and during the entire song, there was a 50' tall
graphic of a human figure on the screen behind the band. The figure was running, towards the camera, away from the camera, and at angles to the camera, and there was a red grid in the background representing 'the cage'. At one point as the music crescendos, this giant figure shatters as it runs into the wall of the "cage". The shattered figure ends up being propelled outside of the cage, representing the person finally escaping to the outside.There is a point to this.
I was seriously tripping out on this figure. I couldn't take my eyes off the fucking thing. Added to this was the fact that the crowd had already begun lighting up joints. The smell was everywhere.
Now, I haven't done any type of drugs since 1997. I personally have no need for them, and additionally my job screens its employees for drug use every 5 years or so.
The italicized part of that sentence is critical, and really is what I'm writing about.
I fully realized my Atheism last year, throwing away my God security-blanket after about 6 years of Agnosticism. Since then, I've noticed a distinct change in the way that I view life. In fact, I'm noticing that my outlook seems to change for the better every day. The one key theme in my changing outlook is that I have an urge to live my life. A by-product of this urge is the fact that I seriously dislike my job. I don't enjoy limits on my freedom, and part of my job requires that my freedom to live life be infringed upon. However, it's paid the bills for seven years and so for now, it must be.
But is it right that I should limit my life because of my job? At the Genesis concert, had I wanted to hit a joint, would it have been wrong for me to do so? I mean, I'm not smoking crack. I'm not shooting heroin, or dropping LSD. Smoking a joint at a Genesis concert is not going to affect my performance at work, it's not going to compromise my integrity, it's not going to negatively impact my life. One could even make the case that it would positively impact my life, if you consider the fact that I wouldn't be bitching about it on this blog.
I understand my employer screening people, and it is definitely within their rights to do so. That doesn't change my perspective on my own life, however. It doesn't change my desire to live my life as fully as possible, knowing that my existence is not forever. It doesn't change the fact that my job, which I dislike immensely, is dictating how I live. In the grand scheme of things, is the money gained from working more valuable than the experiences never enjoyed?
Phil Collins stated that last Saturday was the last show, of their last tour, since they're all getting old. My opportunity to see that running image will never happen again during my lifetime. It's interesting that my memory of the runner will be forever married to my thoughts of being like him, trapped inside a system of living that won't allow me to live.
I love my life, and I'm just now learning how to live it. It will certainly be an interesting ride.
October 7, 2007
God is a bigot
It's Sunday, and neither my wife or I have to work. It's looking to be a nice day, so perhaps we'll go down to the beach and walk the pier. Or maybe we'll just grab some good cds and drive around. My wife is great, she doesn't need to go anywhere in particular, she just wants to be with me wherever we end up.
My wife is a Thai Buddhist. She doesn't believe in God, or Jesus, or Heaven, or Hell. She believes that when we die, we die. Nobody knows, and she isn't about to fill in the blanks. I mean, why not go with what you can actually observe and test?
My wife has one of the kindest hearts of anyone I've met. Everyone who meets her, from family to friends, feels this. Part of it is cultural, and part of it is just her. It is such a breath of fresh air from the typical hate and fear that is preached by the Christian majority in this country, and which is burned into our own culture by default.
For instance, take homosexuality. As a man, to think of two men donkey-balling each other is repulsive to me. Shit, I can't believe that women can actually be turned-on by men. To paraphrase Michael from The Office:
But hey, if that's what homosexuals want to do, then who am I to tell them they can't? Why should they be discriminated against in our country? This situation is a perfect example of the hate preached by Christianity, and soaked up in our culture.
Was Thailand one of those countries? How about Sweden? The Netherlands? Do you know why? Because none of these countries is majority Christian or Islamic. The people in these countries don't hate others for being different. Meanwhile, homosexuality is punishable by death in Islamic countries, and is perpetually one of the main topics in public debate in the United States. Politicians are pimping out the Christians in our country, knowing that a topic as irrelevant as gay marriage will win votes.
In our country, which God has blessed, why are we discriminating against homosexuals? Why are we discriminating against anybody? If God can heal acne and sciatica, then why can't He eliminate discrimination in this country that He hath blessed? Is it because no Christians are praying for it? You know what, maybe that's right! I mean, why would Christians pray for an end to gay bashing? BibleGod Himself is a bigot, so I'd have to think that he's a gay basher in His own right. An interesting idea...let me slow down on the coffee intake.
I've informed my wife that we may both be heading to Hell, since, as the popular Christian bumper sticker goes: If you're living like there is no God, you better be right. Her response was: "That's okay, I've never been there, so it should be fun to visit."
This simple response should infuriate Christians. I mean, how could a person be so nonchalant about the very real perils of Hell? It may even arouse desires to witness my wife burning in Hell, as many Christians say: "I'll be laughing at you while I'm in Heaven."
"Every knee shall bow" stokes the fires of Christian bigotry, as it reinforces their belief that those who reject Jesus will be made to kneel, be made to wimper, be made to beg.
Wow...have you ever thought that this same insanity is what causes Islamic warriors to rejoice as they behead an infidel? Isn't the same core belief responsible? Why so hateful?
Shit man, I've got a long neck too. The kind of neck Christians and Muslims alike would salivate at, waiting to get their first shot at cutting it.
So anyways...The wife and I will be out enjoying each other's company today. Maybe have a nice lunch somewhere. Maybe we'll throw a frisbee around? Or maybe we'll find a nice place to take some pictures. There's a wonderfully cool breeze blowing through my wonderful house right now, as my wonderful wife laughs at me as I type. What a wonderful day to be an Atheist!
My wife is a Thai Buddhist. She doesn't believe in God, or Jesus, or Heaven, or Hell. She believes that when we die, we die. Nobody knows, and she isn't about to fill in the blanks. I mean, why not go with what you can actually observe and test?
My wife has one of the kindest hearts of anyone I've met. Everyone who meets her, from family to friends, feels this. Part of it is cultural, and part of it is just her. It is such a breath of fresh air from the typical hate and fear that is preached by the Christian majority in this country, and which is burned into our own culture by default.
For instance, take homosexuality. As a man, to think of two men donkey-balling each other is repulsive to me. Shit, I can't believe that women can actually be turned-on by men. To paraphrase Michael from The Office:
"The penis is the most magnificent sight a woman could ever see. But taken in the wrong context, it's like a monster movie."
But hey, if that's what homosexuals want to do, then who am I to tell them they can't? Why should they be discriminated against in our country? This situation is a perfect example of the hate preached by Christianity, and soaked up in our culture.
Quick question: Name three countries who, as a whole, regard homosexuality as immoral.
Was Thailand one of those countries? How about Sweden? The Netherlands? Do you know why? Because none of these countries is majority Christian or Islamic. The people in these countries don't hate others for being different. Meanwhile, homosexuality is punishable by death in Islamic countries, and is perpetually one of the main topics in public debate in the United States. Politicians are pimping out the Christians in our country, knowing that a topic as irrelevant as gay marriage will win votes.
In our country, which God has blessed, why are we discriminating against homosexuals? Why are we discriminating against anybody? If God can heal acne and sciatica, then why can't He eliminate discrimination in this country that He hath blessed? Is it because no Christians are praying for it? You know what, maybe that's right! I mean, why would Christians pray for an end to gay bashing? BibleGod Himself is a bigot, so I'd have to think that he's a gay basher in His own right. An interesting idea...let me slow down on the coffee intake.
I've informed my wife that we may both be heading to Hell, since, as the popular Christian bumper sticker goes: If you're living like there is no God, you better be right. Her response was: "That's okay, I've never been there, so it should be fun to visit."
This simple response should infuriate Christians. I mean, how could a person be so nonchalant about the very real perils of Hell? It may even arouse desires to witness my wife burning in Hell, as many Christians say: "I'll be laughing at you while I'm in Heaven."
"Every knee shall bow" stokes the fires of Christian bigotry, as it reinforces their belief that those who reject Jesus will be made to kneel, be made to wimper, be made to beg.
Wow...have you ever thought that this same insanity is what causes Islamic warriors to rejoice as they behead an infidel? Isn't the same core belief responsible? Why so hateful?
Shit man, I've got a long neck too. The kind of neck Christians and Muslims alike would salivate at, waiting to get their first shot at cutting it.
So anyways...The wife and I will be out enjoying each other's company today. Maybe have a nice lunch somewhere. Maybe we'll throw a frisbee around? Or maybe we'll find a nice place to take some pictures. There's a wonderfully cool breeze blowing through my wonderful house right now, as my wonderful wife laughs at me as I type. What a wonderful day to be an Atheist!
October 6, 2007
The UFC back in town!
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| Chuck Liddell vs Keith Jardine |
Last week my wife and I went to UFC 76 at the Honda Center in Anaheim, CA. I'm a big fan of MMA and of course, the UFC is really the only show in town. This is my third time at an event, and it's always great.
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| Anthony Johnson vs Rich Clementi |
Remember when your pastor told you that Atheists are evil, miserable people? And you just drank it up like everything else your pastor feeds to you? Well, at least from outward appearances, it looks like your pastor is wrong. My wife and I are plenty happy with life and living as you can see from this picture of us taken at UFC 76. Maybe I'm a little pissed that we're sitting nosebleed, but otherwise all systems are go.
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| Happy Atheists |
So anyways, the event was fun. Tyson Griffin was exciting as always, Forrest Griffin did what most people thought was impossible, as did Keith "I have the worst nickname in MMA" Jardine. Nothing really surprises me anymore in MMA.
My dad joined us as well, as he's also a pretty big fan of the sport. The tickets were $100 a piece, so it's definitely not cheap. But hey, you only live once, right?
I'm heading out to another MMA event tonight. My friend Peter has a friend that is fighting out at the Anaheim Convention Center, so we're all going to watch him fight.
Please pray for us to reach our destination safely.
In Christ,
The Atheist
Masturbation Guilt hits home.
I accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour multiple times. In church, understand, they push this on you regularly. Couple that with my Christian elementary school, and I was accepting JC all over the place. To the best of my knowledge, Jesus doesn't care if you feel His presence like other Christians. If you truly accept Him, in a heartfelt manner, then you are saved. So, lest you charge I was not a true Christian, think again. Being Christian doesn't require you to be social, or to speak in tongues, or prophesy. I didn't feel compelled to do these things, but I was a Christian, and that was that.
Here are a few memories I have of walking and talking with my Lord:
In either 5th or 6th grade, and over and above all actions in church and elsewhere, I distinctly remember accepting Jesus into my heart on two separate occasions while getting ready for bed. I repeated the action, because I was scared that it didn't "take" the first time.
In 7th grade, I remember praying to Jesus and asking Him to deliver me a girlfriend. In fact, her name was Laura Wells. I actually made a deal with Jesus: Let me go out with Laura, and I'll stop choking my chicken. I'm not sure how long I intended the beating hiatus to be in effect, but I imagine that I thought I'd never do it again. Needless to say, Jesus didn't deliver, and neither did I.
From ~5th - 8th grades, I was a masturbation phenom. Unfortunately, I was also a Christian, and I'm sure you all know what that means: Masturbation Guilt. Oh, how I would pray and pray for strength from Jesus to resist my urges. Ten minutes later, I'm praying to Jesus again asking forgiveness for being sinful. And on and on it went. When my prayers for a girlfriend (see above) went unanswered, I jerked it with a ferocity previously unknown to me, merely to spite Jesus. Predictably though, like a hungover man at an AA meeting, I was back in contact with JC, asking forgiveness.
And so it went. Asking the Lord for strength, courage, and forgiveness, typically in that order. Regardless, I knew Jesus was in my Heart, and I was going to Heaven.
Here are a few memories I have of walking and talking with my Lord:
In either 5th or 6th grade, and over and above all actions in church and elsewhere, I distinctly remember accepting Jesus into my heart on two separate occasions while getting ready for bed. I repeated the action, because I was scared that it didn't "take" the first time.
In 7th grade, I remember praying to Jesus and asking Him to deliver me a girlfriend. In fact, her name was Laura Wells. I actually made a deal with Jesus: Let me go out with Laura, and I'll stop choking my chicken. I'm not sure how long I intended the beating hiatus to be in effect, but I imagine that I thought I'd never do it again. Needless to say, Jesus didn't deliver, and neither did I.
From ~5th - 8th grades, I was a masturbation phenom. Unfortunately, I was also a Christian, and I'm sure you all know what that means: Masturbation Guilt. Oh, how I would pray and pray for strength from Jesus to resist my urges. Ten minutes later, I'm praying to Jesus again asking forgiveness for being sinful. And on and on it went. When my prayers for a girlfriend (see above) went unanswered, I jerked it with a ferocity previously unknown to me, merely to spite Jesus. Predictably though, like a hungover man at an AA meeting, I was back in contact with JC, asking forgiveness.
And so it went. Asking the Lord for strength, courage, and forgiveness, typically in that order. Regardless, I knew Jesus was in my Heart, and I was going to Heaven.
A background in the Church.
I grew up attending a Pentecostal church in Long Beach, CA. My grandmother's husband founded the church in the 50's, then died of an aneurysm while preaching at the pulpit. The church elders laid hands on him, but apparently they didn't try hard enough. Eventually, my uncle took over the church.
I never really fit in well at the church. I tried lifting my hands up towards Heaven as I sang his praises. I reached my hands out to those who were being prayed for. I even honestly prayed during these moments. However, never during these times did I feel the need to speak in tongues, prophesy, or cry at the altar. Even as a 12 year old, I just couldn't see why people were doing this.
An interesting note on this: As a kid, I was never really social to begin with. I wasn't the type to go out and make friends with strangers. I was very popular at my elementary school, but it was a private Christian school where all of us attended kindergarten-6th grade together, so we were all comfortable with each other. Perhaps being active in a youth group really lets the healing balms of Christianity soak in deep...as a voluntarily-outcast warrior for Christ, I guess that shit didn't work on me.
I never really fit in well at the church. I tried lifting my hands up towards Heaven as I sang his praises. I reached my hands out to those who were being prayed for. I even honestly prayed during these moments. However, never during these times did I feel the need to speak in tongues, prophesy, or cry at the altar. Even as a 12 year old, I just couldn't see why people were doing this.
An interesting note on this: As a kid, I was never really social to begin with. I wasn't the type to go out and make friends with strangers. I was very popular at my elementary school, but it was a private Christian school where all of us attended kindergarten-6th grade together, so we were all comfortable with each other. Perhaps being active in a youth group really lets the healing balms of Christianity soak in deep...as a voluntarily-outcast warrior for Christ, I guess that shit didn't work on me.
October 5, 2007
An introduction.
[insert cliche opening introduction here, choose below]
[So yeah, I decided to do the whole blog thing...]
[Good afternoon. My name is Daniel, and I'm an atheist.]
[Buenos noches. Me llamo Daniel, no creo en Dios.]
My goal with this blog will be to give you some insight into the life of an Atheist. Some posts may have nothing to do with religion, though I believe most will. I'm kind of an interesting guy, so hopefully you'll enjoy my life as much as I do.
I figure I should give you some background on me before we get started, so that you can presuppose many things prior to my babbling on about my existence in the land of Jesus:
I'm 29 years old and married (12/07) to a beautiful lady with a lovely smile and a firm grip. We've recently purchased a home in Garden Grove, CA.
I served in the United States Army from '96 - '99. I graduated from DeVry in '01, was hired by a defense contractor as an eletronics technician, then promptly went back to school to get my electrical engineering degree. Or at least that was the plan...
I attended Long Beach City College for five years, received A's in all of my classes, except for Calculus II, where I got a B. I applied to and was accepted to the CSULB School of Engineering, upon which time I had dropped out. After getting married, I realized that the only reason I went to school was because I was bored and had nothing better to do. I couldn't stomach another five years + of that shit.
Now that we've got that outta the way...
[So yeah, I decided to do the whole blog thing...]
[Good afternoon. My name is Daniel, and I'm an atheist.]
[Buenos noches. Me llamo Daniel, no creo en Dios.]
My goal with this blog will be to give you some insight into the life of an Atheist. Some posts may have nothing to do with religion, though I believe most will. I'm kind of an interesting guy, so hopefully you'll enjoy my life as much as I do.
I figure I should give you some background on me before we get started, so that you can presuppose many things prior to my babbling on about my existence in the land of Jesus:
I'm 29 years old and married (12/07) to a beautiful lady with a lovely smile and a firm grip. We've recently purchased a home in Garden Grove, CA.
I served in the United States Army from '96 - '99. I graduated from DeVry in '01, was hired by a defense contractor as an eletronics technician, then promptly went back to school to get my electrical engineering degree. Or at least that was the plan...
I attended Long Beach City College for five years, received A's in all of my classes, except for Calculus II, where I got a B. I applied to and was accepted to the CSULB School of Engineering, upon which time I had dropped out. After getting married, I realized that the only reason I went to school was because I was bored and had nothing better to do. I couldn't stomach another five years + of that shit.
Now that we've got that outta the way...
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